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Spirituality for Beginners
Spirituality for beginners
Spirituality for Beginners
Fr. Bede's almost-daily reflections. When it comes to the spiritual life, we're all beginners. I also send these out by email. Contact me at bcamera@anselm.edu. God bless!
Friday, October 13, 2017
Thursday, October 12, 2017
What do you really need?
Thursday, October 12, 2017
In today’s
Gospel, (Luke 11: 9-10) Jesus commands us to
1.
ASK
2.
SEEK
3.
KNOCK
and along with
each command comes a promise: if we ask, we’ll receive; if we seek, we’ll find;
if we knock, it will be opened for us.
Inspired by
Jesus’ words, I’m knocking on the gates of heaven because, after all,
that is the single most important goal for my entire life; in its light, nothing
else matters---certainly not the daily petty concerns of day-to-day life.
What am I seeking?
What do I really seek? Is it accomplishment, recognition, affirmation, fame,
fortune or something important to do? Well of course, there was a time in my
life when I was actively seeking all of those things, but as life has gone on,
they’ve become less and less important. So what am I seeking?
To be honest,
I think what I’m seeking is to become more and more in touch with my true
self; with that part which lies deep within me where I’m in union with the
Trinity and abiding in perfect love, a love so powerfully manifest that it will
affect my relationships with others, more and more, despite the periodic lapses
in charity which make up part of an imperfect human existence.
And with all
of that, what shall I ask for? In light of the above, I want to ask for God’s
help in removing anything in my life that gets in the way of the goals I’ve
identified by seeking and knocking. And so, as I come before God, confessing my
ignorance, my lassitude and also my own wounded resistance, like a little child
with a hurting boo-boo I want to ask God to take those things out of my life,
admitting full well that I am powerless to do anything about them myself. Yes.
That is what I ask for. I have specific things in mind, but that’s all a
private matter between me and God.
And as for
you, I encourage you to consider the commands, to consider where you are in
your own life and spiritual development at the moment, and after spending some
time in silence and in restful prayer, consider your own answer to these three
must basic suggestions made to us by our Savior.
God bless you!
Tuesday, October 10, 2017
Beneath Frustration
It takes a period of silence and
solitude for you to uncover a wonderful reality. All you need to do is pay
close attention to the moment, moment by moment, and to allow the Spirit within
you to reveal itself, coming from deep down inside, beneath all the stories you
continually tell yourself, beneath all the issues and your thoughts about those
issues. Dive down through these things and don’t let them trap you and keep you
from the inner journey.
Go beneath all the criticisms
you have of others and also of yourself, beneath all your worries and fears,
all your emotions, beneath all your awareness of your imperfection, all your sins,
all your guilt, all that wicked voice that tells you that you are not worthy.
Here’s a hint: You.Are.Worthy simply because God has allowed you to exist.
Focus on this God, hidden deep
within yourself. Focus on He unlimited mercy, His unfathomable love, on His
ardent desire that you will one day live in the heaven He has prepared for you.
Find yourself---your real, true
and eternal self, that place where you are hidden with Christ in God. Breathe
deeply. You don’t have to think about it. Simply become aware, simply let it
bubble up from inside of your even for a brief instant. Focus, but don’t think.
Simply rest. Stay as long as you’d like if you can.
Read these words of Richard Rohr
(“Immortal Diamond”):
Any
ideological, angry, or fear-based process will only reinforce the False Self.
The ego always has an opportunistic agenda. The soul has no agenda whatsoever
except to see what is—as it is—and let
it teach you.
And so when you are caught in
one of those opportunistic agendas, angry, frustrated, annoyed, fearful and
preoccupied, remember that those thoughts and feelings belong to your false
self. Quiet yourself down and dive beneath it all, just as you would dive
beneath strong waves that threatened to engulf you. Dive deep beneath where the
calm can be found, and taste your inner reality.
It takes practice. See the next
bout of aggravation as an opportunity to practice. You will naturally get
better and better at it, so be patient with yourself. You can do it. It will
enfold within you.
God bless you.
Friday, October 6, 2017
Dissolving Discord
I’m going to finish out the week
with another quote from St. Jerome (in a homily on Psalm 76). It might sound
stern for a bit, but there is great hope at the end. Read on:
“. . . there is
no tent of the Lord except where there is peace. Where there is strife and
discord, God is not there as Protector. . . . The abode of God is only in a
peaceful soul; therefore, let the soul that is without peace know that it is
not the dwelling place of God. ‘Peace I leave with you, my peace I give to you.’
(John 14:27) Peace is our legacy from the Savior.”
So what do we do when we are not
at peace, but rather are being torn apart by strife and discord, worries and
anxieties, or when we are in the grip of resentments, bitterness, jealousy or
envy? Is God not with us at those times?
Or perhaps is God speaking to us
the same words He spoke to the disciples at the Last Supper—and remember that he
was speaking to men who were overcome by fear and anxiety at the moment:
“Peace I leave with you, my
peace I give to you.”
I suggest that when we find
ourselves far from peace, we need to remember a couple of things:
First of all, in the very
deepest part of our being, in that part which we are barely conscious of
because it defies rational thought, the Holy Spirit of God rests with us and
continually cries out in prayer for us when we cannot pray ourselves. This
deepest part of ourselves is sometimes called the “True Self” (See Richard
Rohr, Immortal Diamond).
Secondly, God rests more deeply
in our souls and spirits than those less deep parts ourselves that may be
suffering discord, anger and even a certain violence.
Thirdly, once we recognize our
wretched condition, then we can cry out to God and invite Him to dwell
with us and to dissolve the pain and contradiction we find within ourselves,
hanging all of that on the Cross, where Jesus suffered from the effects of all
the sin and pain and discord—where He was literally torn apart in the agony of
His crucifixion.
Finally, lest we doubt that God
will again reside with us, we need remember His promise, a promise that Jerome
quotes at the end of his homily:
‘Behold I stand
at the door and knock. If any man listens to my voice and opens the door to me,
I will come in to him and will sup with him. (Rev 3:20)
St. Jerome concludes him homily
with these words of encouragement:
“Every day
Christ stands at the door of our hearts; He longs to enter. Let us open our
hearts wide to Him; then He will come in and be our host and guest. He will
dwell in us and sup with us.”
God bless you! Have a nice
weekend.
Thursday, October 5, 2017
Moral outrage
Hardly a week goes by these days
before we hear of yet another senseless act of violence claiming innocent
victims with their spilled blood crying out to heaven, “Why? Why are you
allowing this outrage? When will you deliver us from this evil? Why do you
continue to permit this evil to ravage our cities and our countries?”
It is not surprising that in the
face of so much tragedy, some people are giving up, some are losing their faith
in a God who were permit this to go on, some want to wave their fists and cry
out in rage to God or to the universe.
And of course, any statement
about the goodness and love and mercy of God is invariably met with charges
against Him, one of which I read in a paper the other day: “Good and loving
God? So what’s all this about starving children, or cancer, or ALS, huh? Is
that part of being good and loving?!”
We need pray that our faith may
remain firm in the face of such challenges and such dire realities, faith that
someday, somehow, God is going to make it right. But when? How long?
I found great consolation today
in reading the words of St. Jerome. In a homily on Psalm 75, Jerome quotes the
verse
”At
the set time which I appoint I will judge with equity.” (verse3; RSV
translation)
This is what the great
translator and scholar of the Scriptures had to say:
“The Lord is not judge now, but
will be later. If He were judge now, sinners would not be arrogant and gain the
wealth of the world. Is it a scandal to you that the just are in exile and
sinners persecute them? Does it scandalize you that wickedness reins in the
world? Hear the Lord saying: ‘When I seize the appointed time, I will judge
with equity.’ The time for judgment has been set aside. The present world is
not the time of judgment, but of contest.”
I hope this helps you to some
extent, as it does me, as difficult as it is.
God bless you!
Tuesday, October 3, 2017
Nothing!
So there I was, writing in my
journal when my pen ran out of ink. I took off the tip to change the cartridge
and the tip of the pen fell on the floor. Actually, I think it fell into a
black hole because I searched and I searched, and even used a flashlight, and I
simply could not find it. And it happens to be my favorite pen. Then I noticed
that I was really upset about losing the use of that pen.
Once I realized how upset I was,
I made a resolution to let go, reminding myself that my happiness and
well-being does not depend on the possession of a particular fountain pen.
Then I opened my book of Steven
Taylor’s meditations (“The Calm Center”) and read the following title for the
next page in the book:
Can
you be happy with nothing? (!!!!!)
And I chuckled. And a moment of
frustration quickly turned into a moment of mirth. And gratitude.
Part of the meditation says
“.
. . you can be happy with nothing.
There’s
a happiness that has no cause
that
doesn’t come from consuming or collecting.”
And after all of this, it wasn’t
difficult for me to access my happiness that depended on nothing.
I looked in the drawer of my
desk for a replacement pen, and discovered that I have so many pens collected
in that drawer that I never have to go and buy another pen for the rest of my
life!
God bless you!
Friday, September 29, 2017
The Rosebush
The Rosebush (a reflection on a writing of Hildegard of Bingen)
Hildegard: “I’ll accept the
thorns that give off the delicate fragrance of roses. They grew to honor the
One who was faithful, and by controlling myself, I’ll give honor to my Lord.”
What are these thorns
that give off a delicate
fragrance?
Might they be
the thorns that formed the crown
that Our Savior wore
on the day of
His passion?
We know what sweetness came
from
the agony He endured that day.
Might they be
the thorns of our own pain
and agony, or even our mere
discomfort
when things don’t go our way?
For when those thorns
are united to His Passion,
all the ill we bear
will in its time become
sweetness and delight,
such as we might already have
tasted during
seasons of grace?
Might they be
the sins that overcome us and
baffle us?
We’ve been told that
our sinfulness draws Christ
to us, He Who died for us
“while we were yet sinners.”
He comes to us
and the sweet fragrance of His
grace,
delicate as it is,
overwhelms our shame
our
discouragement
our frustration
our
unworthiness,
and give us the encouragement we
need
to set out sights
on the way that leads to His
honor.
And you?
What might your thorns be?
And how does your Lord
turn
them into roses?
God bless you! Have a nice
weekend.
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