More random thoughts, this time
about temptation and the spiritual battle that we all must face.
Lord, free me from the desires
that lead to darkness.
Jesus tempted by Satan and
ministered to by the angels: The icon of my life.
By going through life blissfully
ignoring the fact that we are being lured by Satan, we also blot out the
reality that we are being ministered to by angels.
Sometimes I am so torn. Pulled in
this direction and then in its opposite. At times my heart swells within me and
I yearn to soar into the heavens and to that realm which transcends all human
existence. Other times, I am rooted in earth, in things below, and the angel of
Satan tries to throw me to the ground, and all my life is about is the
darkness, the weakness, the woundedness.
Can it be that only by feeding my
soul can the hunger of the wounded beast be calmed?
Those things in my life that have
brought me true joy, true peace, true love, these have been the matters of soul
and spirit. Those parts of my life which have brought me fleeting moments of
pleasure have passed by quickly and, for the most part, have left me feeling
empty and alone and unfulfilled in the core of my being.
Since you have been raised up in
company with Christ, ask Him to help you use the pains and the trials in your
life as opportunities to grow, to learn, so that you don't wallow in self-pity
and anger that in the long run are more painful than the crosses Christ asks us
to bear.
Since you have been raised up in
company with Christ, let your eyes and ears feast on what fills you with joy
that lasts, rather than on what brings you pleasure that quickly fades
away."
Surround yourself with beauty,
because it will help heal what is not beautiful in your life. Look at things
that direct you to God. Look at things that direct you to what is best in
yourself.
God bless you!
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